That Love Awaits...

Thursday, January 31, 2008

4:53 AM

The song that keeps going in my head (:

*Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

Chorus:
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see*

A reminder to me, to always be happy and cherish the love showered on me...

Labels: To love and be loved.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

3:16 AM

Alright, a short entry before i start mugging.
OGL camp is this weekend and i'm looking forward to it.
The J1s seem enthu so hopefully everything will turn out great (:

Bio test tmr, with maths, chem and econs next week.
Hopefully, i'll be able to at least pass.
CNY's next week and it's gonna be a good break and catch up with my tutorials and stuff. Hopefully will get some quality time with my GA as well as my gfs. I'm worried for some of them. Hmmm.

Anyway, i realised my eye candy's not really that hot, just average but he does have nice muscles and a great view from the back. LOL. okay. stop it eh.

We're gonna have campfire this fri! WOOOO~~
*shoulder snap clap*
*shoulder shoulder snap clap*
*lap lap*
*shoulder snap clap*
* shoulder**pause**shoulder clap*

LOL! my GA and the cmapfire comm should know what i'm talking about. It's addictive i tell you. Maybe i should teach the group i'm assigned to during camp. Triton 7's quite enthu though, i'd love to stay with them(: BUT the O2 comm is being so hush hush regarding who's allocated to which group.

Anyway. I better go now before i get addicted to the comp and slack off. CHEERS!(:

Labels: failure to plan is planning to fail.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

6:14 PM

Two days of being eighteen and I can already feel the difference.
Of how mature I've become and how much I've grown.

Not to mention the bigger responsibilities I hold as the eldest of four.
Now instead of defending my siblings and fighting with my parents, I've turned out to be the peacemaker, the neutral one, ensuring that neither side gets too extreme.

My father said something which really upset me yesterday, to the point where I actually shed a few tears but I just let it go. He broke his promise yet again. Ohwells.

Anyways, on a happier note, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE LOVELY GIFTS! Ohmygod. I love all of it and i <3 all of you!

Great company+ loved ones + a great celebration = the best bday in my life!

Thank to all of you who came. You really made my 18th everything i wanted it to be. Special thanks to my darlings who came early to help out with the decorations and for the really sweet messages you put in the stars....

Here's the list of things i received.
parents: skates and laptop(PRETTY!!!)
nazry: the bottle i wanted and CHOCOLATES!!
khalid: 2008 diary
irah, shaggy, murny, j & fatma: a top, a bag & a mug with stars in it (:
kelly: eeyore mug(so cute)
malina & nani: pretty daisies!
huda: necklace(the one i was wearing that day. LOL)
danial & darren: earrings and necklace
joanna: a really sweet picture frame
my darling councillors: the wonderful picture, calender & perfume!

Thank you so much guys! i <3 all of you!

Labels: eternal bliss within a single frame- FOUND

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

3:53 AM

Two more days (:
Twenty-nine and counting.
The number of special people coming over.
Hopefully no one will back out because I would really love to spend my birthday with all the people who mean so much to me and who have undoubtedly made me into the person I am today.

Moving on, I got my skates! They are so PRETTY! Pretty pretty blue! My skating skills are a little rusty but I know i'll get the hang of it. For now, it's an avenue for me to vent out my frustrations and remain fit. I must get back my stamina.

Today was exhausting and I have no idea why. Realised that I looked kind of pale. Hmmm. Maybe i'm coming down with something. Wrong timing. Ohwells. To all those out there who are down with something or another, get well soon alright? Rest well and drink lots of water.

Alright time for me to go do my work. Enough slacking.

Labels: A language only understood by the heart.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

5:11 AM

4:49 AM

Seven days and counting (:
Since I've been asked a couple of times as to what I would like as a birthday gift, here's my wishlist. But let me just say that it's the thought that counts and I will love whatever i'm given (:

nuzy's wishlist for the year 2008:

-SKATES(most probably my parents will be getting this one)
- 2008 diary
- shades
- adidas green watch
- tops, bottoms & SHOES (i <3 shoes!)
- accessories( earrings, bracelets etc.)
- green/black crumpler
- bags(handbags, purses etc.)
- pullover
- ipod video
- perfume
- flowers & chocolates!

well that's basically it. I realise it's quite a long list and a little vague but like i said before, it's the thought that counts. Hugs & kisses will be much appreciated as well (:

Anyway. I should go study. Been slacking the whole day except for doing a little bit of maths, not to mention my maths tuition. Hoping my motivation wont burn out too soon. Cheers people (:

Monday, January 14, 2008

5:12 AM

From Fazall to me:
"Nuzurath.Haha , did you think i might have forgotten you?I'm sorry , i can't forget such a sweet person.I don't think i'll miss you dear cause if ever the thought crossed my mind , i'd just need to look inside my heart and i'd see you smiling back at me.I mean , whats there to miss if you're with me all the time....=)"

That is one of the sweetest things anyone has ever said to me and it really touched my heart. I never thought I had that much of an effect on anyone before. Thank you so much. It makes me miss you even more you know, when you say things like that.

Cause i don't have anyone to constantly disturb me anymore. *winks* jks. Anyway, i shall continue looking for you during my breaks so you wont feel so alone. On the condition that you keep that flirtatious classmate of yours away from me. LOL.

This morning was a momentous one for me although I was late for duty. My apologies to Sandeep & Sherman. Shall not divulge any information and I would appreciate if all those people i told kept it to themselves (:

Later on in the day, I was completely shocked when a secret was accidentally revealed in front of me. I shall not pursue the matter further as I do not wish to cause any disruptions in the lives of those involved. I had my suspicions during the past few months but at that point of time I thought that I was just being paranoid.

Another secret to add to my long list of secrets. Oh wells. Time for my lalaland. Sweet dreams everyone(:

Labels: shocking revelations.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

6:04 AM

I'm confused.
I was initially upset but now i'm confused.

After reading a particaular blog post, i'm uncertain of my thoughts once again. Although it had seemed as if things were becoming clearer and my life was starting to settle down once more.

I need to know if it was referring to me. Don't ask me why, I just feel obligated to find out.
Even if it hurts knowing the truth. SIGHS.

The even worse part is that one of my besties said this to me "disappointed that u cant keep true to urself." That was only part of our conversation.

I just wanna say thank you for being honest with me. Don't feel bad or anything because what you said was entirely true. Constructive criticism but i'm not holding anything against you alright dear?(:Anyway. Guess i still need to do some soul-searching. Oh wells.

Labels: looking for my eternal bliss within a single frame.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

1:38 AM

I just realised that i missed out on an important farewell.
Of my dearest dearest confidante, Fazall.

The one who truly made me smile after a lousy day, the one who pulled me up when i was down, the one who kept me going when times got tough, the one who kept me standing through it all.

The one who'll stay in my memory and be loved forever. You will never be forgotten.

That said, I want to apologise for not being there that night. No matter what happens, no matter where I am, I will always be here for you. I know many others will be there as well, because you have not only touched my heart, but many others as well. Just remember that wherever you are, you will never be truly alone. I'll miss you...

Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Is it you I want,
Or just the notion of
A heart to wrap around so I can find my way around

Safe to say from here,
You're getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

To lie here under you,
is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

Labels: the saddest moments