Western individualism versus Eastern collectivism.

Interesting huh? This topic came out in my GP tuition class a couple of days ago and it got me thinking about how the world we're living is changing into a more individualistic one. Perhaps it's due to the Western influence but if you really analysed the situation, you'd realise that it's not the cause although Westerners(i.e. Americans) do value their individualism, a lot.

The reality is that individualism comes hand in hand with economic growth and prosperity. Being individualistic does not make one self-centred neither does being collectivist mean you posess unquestioned obedience and have no thoughts or ideals of your own.

Being individualistic just means that we are able to stand up for what we believe and that we're not afraid to take a step out of the line and do things that others dare not while being collectivist means that you have priorities other than your personal goals such as family and friends.

Personally, I think a balance of both is the ideal way of life.
Speaking of balance, I really need to get my head straight.

March block is in two weeks and i haven't started my revision. Orientation's finally over and to be honest, I was completely drained by the end of it but life doesn't stop for you especially if you're a J2 meridian. I had to drag myself to school for classes. I wasn't really surprised when I heard that majority of the council had chosen to stay at home to recuperate. A half day off would be much appreciated.

This week has been the roughest I've ever encountered. It wins hands down. I got caught sleeping during chem today but at least my teacher asked if I was alright. The exhaustion is clearly written on my face. Everywhere I went, people kept asking if I was alright. Thanks for the concern. It really warms my heart to know that I have so many people whom I can count on.

To all councillors, please take care of your health and rest well. We did great and we definitely deserve recognition for our efforts and sacrifices (:

For me, I should get busy. Chem SPA tomorrow and here I am updating. Will elaborate more on orientation soon. TIll then, study study STUDY! (:

Labels: it's not over till I say it is

Fear of the supernatural.
A phobia that many face when they are completely surrounded by darkness.

It doesn't only affect the females but also their male counterparts.
What exactly makes it so scary that some of my bravest friends are reduced to tears just by the thought of encountering them?

To the point where many of them refuse to walk unaccompanied into the darkness, much less sit alone in the middle of the night for just a short period of time.

I have not personally encountered the wrath of a supernatural one, not that I have a desire to do so but my own advice is to just remain calm or pray silently that the particular being would leave you alone.

I'm sure in most cases, humans are the ones who ignited the anger in them by disrespecting them or by doing other things that are simply uncalled for. Should you leave them alone, they would have no reason to bother you. Getting affected by their presence would only encourage them.

Think of them as flashers. If flashers know that their flashing would get a really loud response, they would continue their perversion on that poor victim but if you exude confidence and calmness, remaining your composure or at least not letting your distress show, your assailant would surely give up and they'd move away.

Okay. Enough of that. I think I've said enough. I'm not directing this post to anyone. They were just some general thoughts that have been on my mind and I felt like letting them loose here.

Labels: Fear is only as deep as the mind allows

Soiree '08 was amazing!!!
The acoustics by Irsyad, Jonas and Ryan was awesome.
Plus, Danial, Fadhli and Zahra's voice were SO sexy.
I totally melted when they were singing. Need I say more?

Anyway, I had an amazing time tonight. Catching up with my gfs, spending time with my councillors and classmates, watching my darlings dance and sing. My parents who let me go and stay out slightly later than usual.

What more could make me happy?
It was close to pure bliss (:

Of course there was a certain element or rather, a certain someone missing. Oh well. You can't have all your wishes come true at once.

There is something I have to get off my chest. Some juniors are really not performing up to standard and I sincerely hope that they buck up soon, or else we're all in deep shit. I don't mean to be so crude but it's what I honestly feel. It doesn't matter how you were elected, through leadership or just out of popularity, you are the chosen ones. The future leaders. I'm praying they will improve, there's not much time left to make mistakes, especially fatal ones.

Being a councillor has really honed my observation skills.
It's pretty obvious when you start to change after getting elected into a high-profile position. Arrogance can be a fatality in times like these.

After some time, it is understandable to feel burdened by the responsibilities you carry but you have to keep in mind that you were chosen above the rest and that there are people who will be watching you, not to mention looking up to you as a leader. So be the best you can be.

Anyway, on a slightly less serious note, my eye candy wasn't present during Soiree. Actually, it doesn't really matter because the effect is wearing off already, he's just TOO MAT for me. LOL.

No loss for me though because I will be loyal to one and one only (:

Ending off with a little inspiration to motivate all those out there (including myself) who are worrying or thinking that they're not going to make it through their A level year.

“Success means doing the best we can with what we have.
Success is the doing, not the getting; in the trying, not the triumph.
Success is a personal standard, reaching for the highest that is in us, becoming all that we can be.”

Don't listen to what people say. No one should put you down without your permission. Smile and the your disposition will surely improve.

Sweet dreams (:

Someone fell off a bike today.
The highlight of my day.
Did i mention that it was extremely comical? No, well it was (:
Thank god the grass was thick and soft.

About my previous entry, I apologise for the worry I've caused. I was just letting off steam and I feel much better now. Thanks for caring guys(:

Fazall told me something that day that really brought a smile to my face. I'm gonna pester him till he tells me who the culprit is....

Anyway, finishing up on some proposals before I start on my schwork. Looks like I'm behind on most subjects due to the two days I was absent last week. The next two weeks are going to be really trying but at least I'm not alone because there are others who are going through the same thing as well.

Something has been taken from deep inside of me,
A secret I've kept locked away, no one can ever see.
Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away,
Like moving pictures in my head, for years and years they've played.

Time to get back to work. Cheers.

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The insecurities are back.
The doubts, the fears.
The ones that have constantly haunted me ever since the beginning. Hovering over me, waiting in the shadows, for the right moment to present itself.

Now here I am, debating within, if I made the right choice, to choose the aspects of my current life, to carry the burdens and responsibilities I wholeheartedly accepted in the beginning.

I'm not one to make a wrong choice so why is it that I feel so upset by what's happening around me? In the beginning, I just let it go because there wasn't anything that could be done. It was all already set in stone.

Perhaps all this frustrations have been kept hidden in my heart because there was nothing I could do about it. But now that I've been pushed past my limits, this shall be my confession.

The ability to lead and serve. One of my qualities? I sincerely hope so but apparently I lack the character of a leader. It's the only explanation as to why I'm always overlooked. It's not that I mind doing background work, it's the fact that undeserving idiots get a chance to show their so called "leadership". So much for fairness.

I guess I overestimated them. But I guess I have to thank them, because for once they made me feel the one thing I feared the most ever since I was inducted, inadequate. Maybe they're right and i'm not fit to be a leader. So why exactly was I accepted?

I resent the fact that people underestimate me. I resent the fact that they changed the whole concept and stripped me of my position. I resent myself for the frustrations I feel over my insecurities.

I should have left when I had the chance. Now i'm just looking forward to the end. The end to all this slavery and bullshit. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely adore the people I get to work with, all the darlings I've grown close to but enough is enough.

Don't bother trying to relate to us when you will never in hell understand what we're going through. Enough comparisons made. We are unique. Accept us the way we are or you won't get anywhere. How long will it take for you to learn? To understand that we need the freedom to grow. Maybe you never will.

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears i'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening...

Labels: this is how I feel

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! (:

To all those who are happily attached, stay happy and may your relationship be filled with joy and love. Cherish what you have with one another and never take each other for granted.

To thos who are single, don't fret. Have faith in love and know that you'll definitely find your one and only when the time comes. It may happen when you least expect it.

For me, I'm just happy to be surrounded by friends and family who love me. Not to mention that special someone who's been there for me, never failing to put a smile on my face.

I apologise for not being there in school today to celebrate this special event with all my darlings. Still not in the best of health. Hopefully, I'll get better.

Smile and cherish the moment (:

Labels: love in the air.

Restlessness.
Lack of self control.
Temptations.

The three things things that seek to destroy my focus.

Sighs. So maybe i'm feeling a little emotional and upset over my lack of discipline and things i did not get done over the past four days. The four days of holiday that passed by ever so quickly.

If music be the food of love, play on,
Give me excess of it, surfeiting,
The appette may sicken and so die.


Random thought. Those who took shakespeare may understand what i mean. Really feeling emotional and I have no idea why.

Bio SPA's coming up this week. Hopefully, I'll be able to pull through and i won't fall ill. At least not yet. My throat's killing me. I must have gotten the germs from my brother and sister who are both recovering at the moment.

It's amazing how I'm easily awed by Nazry's blog posts. I find them really intriguing and they never fail to pique my interest. The language, the flow of the posts.... Man how i wish i could write the way he does. LOL.

Anyway, someone got jealous over a certain eye candy today. FUNNY! (:

It's a secret so if you wanna know, you gotta ask me. But it doesnt mean i'll actually tell you because my pride's on the line here.

CHEERS (:

Labels: roses of spring.

Happy chinese new year to all those celebrating! (:

I know it's two days late but better late than never. Been busy the past couple of days with my aunt's party, catching up with family and all. My cousin went back to australia this morning. Definitely gonna miss him and i wish all the best with his marriage proposal. Most probably will be going to visit him end of this year.

Anyway, I am loaded with work but i shall not complain because i know all those out there celebrating at this very moment are in a worse of situation. Lol. Hmmm. I'm actually too lazy to update about anything else. OGL camp was disappointing. Not gonna elaborate since this isn't a private blog.

To the one who cheers me up after an extremely rough day, the one who never fails to make me smile...

What's past is past. It wont affect what's happening now unless you let it. Be strong, happy and proud that you made it through your roughest moments. I know I am. (:

When i'm lost in the rain, in your eyes i know,
i'll find the light to light my way.

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