Monday, June 30, 2008
7:10 PM
Last day of exams. Chemistry paper 1 & 2.Just gonna read through my notes one last time before I leave the house.
He told me something really interesting yesterday. There are five meridians in his course, two of whom I know pretty well, comsidering that they were my seniors and the fact that I found them attractive. Lol. Hope they're not reading this but hey, i'm just being honest. (:
After this week, I have exactly 17 weeks left to the start of my A levels. To some it may still be far away but having lived through 17 years of education to make it here and the get the chance to sit for them, I am not going to slack my way through. It's definitely not going to be easy but life's like that.
I am supposed to set an example for my siblings. The pressure i'm under is intense but i'm going to do this for myself and not for anyone else. My parents may have dreams for me but i won't allow them to decide my future(yet again). But let's just see how it goes shall we?
Labels: chemistry
Saturday, June 28, 2008
9:44 PM
Binomial and poisson distribution.That's the only thing i've acclompished this weekend, other than finishing two novels adn online shopping. I swear the computer is a major distraction. Sighs.
On a slightly happier note, we had an eventful talk earlier today. I was speechless when he told me about his plans for the future. I guess I wasn't ready to accept the fact that I will be a full-fledged adult soon. After so many years of dreaming to be an adult as soon as I can, I can't believe that I'm nearly at the finishing line.
My plans for the future are not absolute, unlike him. I do have an interest in physiotherapy but for some reason, my parents are against the idea of it. It's not that I don't intend to honour their wishes as revenge to what they've afflicted on me. I actually have to thank them for all they've done for me. It's just that I don't want to waste my time doing something I have no interest in and changing courses halfway through.
I have 17 weeks to my A level examinations. In certain ways i'm glad because i'm one obstacle away from the end but in others not so, because reaching the finishing line would mean the start of a new beginning, one which would be based entirely on my own decisions. Am i ready?
Labels: counting steps.
Friday, June 27, 2008
5:14 PM
I'm being forgotten.Sighs, how depressing.
It's not like I have anyone else to talk to.
Everyone's busy with exams, school, ns, smth or another.
In the end, all I have is me. I should have just accepted that from the start. Why the hell was I living in denial?
Parents are away for the weekend, so that's one less thing to worry about. Now I just need to discipline myself and focus on my last four papers.
anna ni issho datta no ni
kotoba hitotsu tooranai kasoku shiteiku senaka ni ima wa
Labels: independence.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
12:14 AM
6 papers down and four more to go.I have to say that although the papers were tough, I could still handle most of the questions. But let's just reserve judgement for now and see how my results turn out. If it's not good, then i'll have to push myself even further.
Did I mention that he got into civil defence, which is rather weird. Army to CD, major change if you ask me. I dont know what the govt's thinking. But at least he's happy and he'll still commission in jan next year. Officer cadet trainee. Lol. Way better than the rank I received.
Sighs. I miss his comapny and motivation.
Labels: when you're gone
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
3:54 AM
Two days of exams and I'm already exhausted.24 hours away from him and i'm already depressed.
Sighs.
I saw an adorable toddler on the train today who reminded me so much of someone I love but I couldnt help wondering how different he looked from his parents. His mother was wearing this extremely tight blouse with almost all the buttons open down the front such that she was exposing her goodies for everyone to see. His father looked a tad more decent and was at least giving his son some attention.
Makes you think that it was a shotgun marriage right? Well I have to agree. And they were a malay couple which made me feel even more embarrassed. In a way, I respect them for dealing with the consequences of what they'd done instead of aborting or getting rid of their child but they should have thought about the consequences of what they were doing.
I wonder what the generation before us did that made so many malay youths turn out this way. It's saddening but maybe it's not my place to say anything. After all I may not know what they've been through. I should consider myself lucky that I have great friends who are not abd influences and who truly care for me (:
Btw. Happy belated birthday fuzzy-wuzzie! *hugs*
Labels: ice-cream cures.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
6:38 AM
10 days since I last blogged.4 days till the start of my mid yrs.
4 days till he goes back in.
1 more day till he knows his posting.
I'm praying that he'll get what he wants or at least not get what he's truly reluctant of.
Anyway. Happy bday aci! I'm really glad you liked the present (:
Now all of us are 18, we shall go celebrate after As!
My revision has speeding up over the past week and although it's pretty slow, it's been some real progress at last. With him as a bio tutor (a superb one in fact), I finally understand most of the basics for bio. The only problem left is applying what I know.
Home has been a nuisance, with construction work all over the place so i've been spending time at the library which is not exactly conducive either but slightly better.
I've been spending quite a lot of time with him as well. It's been really relaxing and I can't remember the last time I felt so at peace. We went skating today and when he said he was bad at it, I really thought he was. BUT as usual, he was exaggerating and he only fell down twice.
Before that we ate at Sushi Tei. The food was to die for, especially for him. The look on his face when he tasted the roe.... I was truly amazed at how much satisfaction one can derive from ingesting sushi.
My order
His order
Our satisfied smiles(:
The one who got smacked on the ass by a BANGLA!!!!
LOL. Enough said. Time for bed! *Yawns*
Labels: irresistable smile.
Friday, June 6, 2008
6:55 AM
5th Students Council Farewell.To put it simply, it was AWESOME!
Thank you so much number sixths.
I had a wonderful time and the event was planned out.
Give a pat on your backs for a job well done!
Although you were a little evil with the colgate topped cake, the food and closing ceremony was touching. I apologise for leaving early. The present was really sweet. I absolutely love it!
After two weeks of being away from school, I finally met up with my darling councillors for the farewell. It's been ages since I saw them and it was great catching up with them today.
Sherman was my boyfriend for the day (:
Thank you for the chocolate ecstasy, rocky road and white chocolate raspberry(?) ice-cream.
Nani got Junkai as a boyfriend, by default. LOL!
But I have to praise him because today he put on a pair of skates for the first time! And he only fell down once but that was only because he was doing his body wave thing and me and Nani were not strong enough to keep him upright. Mind you, we both took one side.
Tomorrow, I'll be doing CIP for the China victims at Vivo (of all places). I got dragged into it because Shireen needed one more person to complete the team. Sounds a little regimental since the rules are rather strict but hey rules are meant to be broken right? (:
We'll go on, keep flying high.
We'll go on and on, keep flying high above the sky.
We'll go on, keep flying high,
We'll go on and on, on and on,
We'll go on and on, keep flying high.....
Labels: i love my council
Sunday, June 1, 2008
11:21 PM
It's already the second week of the hols and i've not made much progress in my studies. I'm sure i'm not the only one feeling that way. Sighs. I sure as hell feel the pressure but sometimes I just cant seem to sit down and mug. My parents have been going on and on about pharmacy. I know they're trying to hint, obviously, but now it's getting rather annoying and making me feel as if I should take any other course but pharmacy.
On a slightly happier note, I've finished all my elearning modules and started on my maths revision. Hopefully that would give me my much needed motivation and relieve me of the restlessness I feel.
CO night's next week. Hopefully I'll be able to attend and I can see my darling platoonmates again. It's been a really long time and I realise that I miss them to bits. Delta 06(: My cadets would be all grown up by now and I know it's going to be really nostalgic going back to cedar.
Relieving memories of being a cadet for three years, as a private, lance corporal and corporal. Passing put as a 2nd sgt during specialist course and finally being promoted to 1st sgt for my last year as a member of the National Cadet Corps. All the things we went through as a platoon, from Alpha'03 to Bravo'04, Charlie'05 and finally Delta'06.
Some memories may be painful to relive.
But deep down, I know it'd definitely be worth it. (:
Labels: past and future
