Sunday, July 20, 2008
7:39 AM
Another five days without him. Sighs.This weekend seemed like just a few hours.I wasn't able to do any revision. I'm hardly able to keep up with the workload as it is and things just keep piling up.Anyway. Had a surprise bbq for Irah at pasir ris park today (:She had no idea where we were cuz we blindfolded her.The people who attended were ash, shez, irah, murny and zia, me and nazry, fatma and khalid, and lyon. Farihin and her bf came as well. I swear the boys are useless at starting a fire. LOL. Although I managed to spend a good six hours with him, it just felt like it wasnt enough. Like he said, it is never enough. I teared when I had to say farewell to him. Knowing that I wont be able to feel his warmth, see him smile that crooked smile of his and feeling his arms around me when i'm down, is enough to make me cry. Sighs. I miss him alr.But like what Fatma said, the sooner I say goodbye, the earlier I'll say hello to him again. I just hope i'll be able to last the week ahead.Labels: holding on
Sunday, July 13, 2008
12:30 AM
It's seven weeks to prelims and 16 to As.I'm running out of time.But I know I can do this, with friends and loved ones guiding me, I know I can.I wont be able to blog as regularly since I have to make use of all the time I have left. Anyway, there's one last thing I have to get off my chest. My sister got me all fired up at her that day. Just because she did relatively well for her mid yrs, she thinks she's earned the right to put her elder sister down. So what if you did well? Does that give you the right to mock the one person who stood by you, supported and believed in you when you were hit with bad results? Did you have to go mouthing off your results? Silence would have been much appreciated.The song that's been running through my head the whole day. Nazry got me addicted to it (: Angel of Mercy How did you find me? Where did you read my story? Pulled from the papers Desperate and hardened seeking a moment every fix All I wanted to say All I wanted to do Is fall apart now All I wanted to feel I wanted to love Its all my fault now A Tradegy I fear Angel of Mercy How did you find me? How did you pick me up again? Angel of Mercy How did you move me? Why am I on my feet again? And I see you Whoa Whoa Whoa I feel you Whoa Whoa Whoa Before just the daylight Come and i stand by Waiting to catch the quickest plane Flying to nowhere Is better than somewhere That's where i've been and nothing's changed All I wanted to say All I wanted to do Is fall apart now All I wanted to feel I wanted to love Its all my fault now A Tragedy for sure Angel of Mercy How did you find me? How did you pick me up again? Angel of Mercy How did you move me? Why am I on my feet again? And I see you Whoa I feel you Whoa Im so lost in you A tredgy seemed to be over now A tradegy it seemed to be Angel of Mercy How did you find me? How did you pick me up again? Angel of Mercy How did you move me? Why am I on my feet again? And I see you whoa I feel you Whoa I feel you Oh Whoa I feel you Oh Oh Oh Labels: when the wind blows
Friday, July 11, 2008
8:45 PM
I apologise for being in such a bitchy mood.I'm sorry i'm angry and upset.Especially by one thing but how the hell am I supposed to put it in words?Guess I just need some time alone.Or just get rolled over by a train.Those precious droplets fell once again.
It’s been so long that deep down, I’d thought that it’d been forgotten.
No such luck I guess. Sighs.
To my girlfriends:
We can do this and thank you for checking up on me. I love you guys with all my heart.
Labels: frustrations.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
7:58 PM
Spent majority of friday with my gfs, chatting and gossiping. Shez and Fatma invited me to attend this talk that was being held that night at paya lebar. It sounded interesting so I asked my mum and aunt. Ended wearing a tudung there. My first time out of the house, all covered up. It was a nerve wracking experience. I guess it shows that maybe i'm just not ready to embrace that part of Islam yet.Khalid and Fatma were the first to see me and boy were they stunned. Especially Khalid, which totally didnt help my nerves. He was shocked to see the change. LOL. Thank you anw (:He came as well, although he was a little late. I sort of regretted asking him to come because he looked so drained and he only had two nights to rest. Hmmm.Have I mentioned about my new timetable? It's seriously packed. I hope I have the stamina to keep up. Speaking of which I should be studying now. Sighs, I cant be so easily distracted. Oh wells. Tmr is youth day so I have an extra day to catch up.It's been half a year and a day. Yesterday, when I sat by him, I felt my tension from the past two weeks, slowly ebb away. I felt the ease of laughter and smiles return. I felt my worries and insecurities disappear. All I felt was peace. Thank you my love.Labels: Prognatus ex Incendia
Thursday, July 3, 2008
3:06 AM
I am officially a happy kid(:
why?
Because i got to play pool, hang out with my gfs and watch the movie i've been dying to see.
Wanted is a must watch!!! Angelina Jolie is damn sexy, the sound effects and plot was excellent.
I have to apologise to Irah for making a lot of noise during the movie, was a little overexcited. Sorry babe. Anyway, I had a lot of fun catching up with you (:
Met up with the lovebirds yesterday afternoon. They are so adorable together. Shez came to meet us for awhile and we went for lunch at the chicken rice stall I love (: I watched August Rush with Khalid on his BRAND NEW ACER laptop while Fatmah was studying. The story was truly touching and the music was really sweet.
Played pool after sending Shez off. (Btw guys should never ever ever EVER make a girl wait. Sheesh!) Anyway, played two games against each of the lovebirds, glad to say that I won. LOL! Like khalid says, i've been nazry-trained (: I made a deal with both of them. Thrash me and i'll agree to get on that damn bungee. They've been bugging me for the past two weeks. And FATMA!!! i'm not the only one who's got a phobia, Irah doesnt like the idea as well. Now it's two versus three (:
Everyday I Patiently Wait
Feeling Like A Fool But I Do Anyway
Nothing Can Feel As Sweet And As Real
As Knowing I Wasn't Waiting In Vain
I miss you...
Labels: listen to the music
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
4:38 AM
Exams are over (:Two days break before it's back to school.Planning to go shopping with cheryl and shireen tomorrow and skating on thurs. Me and cheryl saw our "ex-stalker" in the train today and she was telling me about her junior who was dumb enough to go out with him. He is not a gentleman at all i tell you... He made her pay for the cab fare as well as for dinner. Ohmygosh. Even the most inexperienced guy would know that making a girl pay is a definite no-no.I'm working hard on my project and I really hope he likes it. Cheryl was commenting that I'm very nice to him, i.e. a nice girlfriend. Lol. Thank you Cheryl and please don't change, you're lovely the way you are (:To him:I'm truly sorry for fretting prematurely. I guess it's just in my nature to think alot and worry. You know how paranoid I can get. About what you told me, I don't know how to express explicitly how I feel about you. Like you said, words are just words. So watch me alright?Labels: i'm here to win your heart and soul
