Saturday, August 30, 2008
12:54 AM
My fourth straight day of fasting to pay back what I owe. It's pretty last minute I have to agree but at least by 7.12 pm today, I'll be done. Fasting month's in two days, meaning I have two months to my A levels and a week to my prelims. Sighs. I truly dont feel ready. Although I have to admit that I'm in slightly better shape than I was for my mid yrs, I dont know if it will be enough. I'll just have to keep my morale up.Huda came over on thursday. To my surprise, she missed me. LOL. I'm happy things are working out for her and please stop demoralizing yourself. You deserve more credit than that my dear. As much as I disapprove over you crushing over a boy who's two years our junior, let me know if anything serious happens alright? I may nag and disapprove at certain points but i'm here for you always. (:I hung up the phone tonight,
something happened for the first time, deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever
Feel the same way about me
It’s just too much .. just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know
Chorus
Do you ever think, when you’re all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I’m trying, try to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t going away, going away
Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging
Spending time girl, are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
Cause I believe we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever
Chorus
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know
Chorus
The song that's stuck in my head. It brings back so many nostalgic memories. The feelings of helplessness, anger. The memories of my council, preparing for the events and the rushing of proposals as well as last minute studying for promos. It seems as though an eternity has passed since then...
It's almost a year since I first met him and this song reminds me so much of how I was feeling back then. The feeling of incredulity over the fact that I had finally met someone worthwhile. September 2007 was one heck of a milestone for me. Right now, I just feel grateful for having him in my life and knowing that there is someone out there who really, truly and sincerely loves me. No facades, just plain truth.
The strangers we once were to the sense of familiarity we have now. I truly hope it will last. This special world we have, the place where we belong, our hearts always as one, knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.
Labels: mesmerized
Friday, August 15, 2008
5:32 AM
Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag. I'm not gonna move, Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand, Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am, Some try to hand me money they don't understand, I'm not... broke I'm just a broken hearted man, I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do, How can I move on when I've been in love with you... Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. So I'm not moving... I'm not moving. Policeman says son you can't stay here, I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year, Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows, If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go. Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. So I'm not moving... I'm not moving. I'm not moving... I'm not moving. People talk about the guy Whos waiting on a girl... Oohoohwoo There are no holes in his shoes But a big hole in his world... Hmmmm Maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved, And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news, And you'll come running to the corner... Cos you'll know it's just for you I'm the man who can't be moved I'm the man who can't be moved... Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be, Thinking maybe you'd come back here to the place that we'd meet, And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street. So I'm not moving... I'm not moving. I'm not moving... I'm not moving. Going back to the corner where I first saw you, Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.This song is dedicated to my one and only(:OH! and the cat is out of the bag. I feel quite sad actually but oh wells. He's an impatient boy but i still love him so. (:Labels: learning to fly.
Saturday, August 9, 2008
7:12 AM
Hapy National Day! (:Spent majority of today with him at the beach. The weather was nice and gazing into those brown eyes of his was all I needed to wash away my worries and turn my frown upside down. Thank you so much.I did some revision today though it wasn't much. Watched the NDP live telecast and boy was it boring. I know the acts are supposed to show the spirit of Singapore but I think they overdid the costumes just a tad too much. Oh wells. The new series Calefare and First Class had me rolling on the floor laughing (:We shared a tub of B&Js while waiting for the rain to stop and he told me about what happened during his medical check up for the brunei trip. It was really amusing. Apparently some lance corporal medic hit on him and the expression he gave me was just hilarious. Oh wells. He should be happy it wasn't some construction worker. LOL. Looks like I have competition (:Labels: you're all i need
Sunday, August 3, 2008
11:11 PM
28 days to prelims and 3 months to A levels.I think i've been studying but it all amounts to nothing when compared to so many others. I lose my focus at the littlest things and my laptop has been a major distraction. Hmmmm.On another hand, I'm feeling blissful because I managed to spend some time with him on Saturday and tomorrow happens to be our seventh month (:Looking back, I'm really grateful to have him by my side. My motivation, my punching bag. Although he's not always there for me physically, I know that I'm always occupying part of his thoughts, when he's resting or attending lectures or even handling hazardous material. I really hope we'll last but only time will tell...Fasting month's arriving soon. By the time it's hari raya, i'll have exactly a month to my final lap. As much as I dread the exams, I can't wait for it all to be finally oer.Oh and my dad confided in me and my sister that he was buying a BMW 3 series coupe for my mom for their 20th anniversary. Isn't that sweet? I hope I marry a guy who dotes on me as well. (: Labels: the smile on your face
